currently listening to: "life in disguise" - the slip
something isn't right and i think it's me. you know when you get those days where something just isn't right, and it's probably you? that's me, right now. this is me sounding incredibly oh-so-emo, a la dashboard confessional style. but whatevs, i'm too tired to care. i am going to whine, whine whine, and maybe have some cheese with it. get it? cheese with my..w(h)ine.. a ha ha.. ha?
pardon the possibly, slightly egotistical question, but where has my design thunder gone? why can't i make anything half decent? did i ever have it? why am i designing for a homeless newspaper? this is not at all like project runway. the teacher lied. what a bastard. you know that one newspaper that homeless people keep trying to get you to buy in san francisco? well, so one of our projects for my design class is to re-design the homeless newspaper distribution in san francisco. basically, the winning design gets to be the new look of those newspapers. my teacher put it best as he described, "it's like project runway... only... not really." uh yeah, not really.
why are my aunts pestering me about getting a masters? does anyone really care if i got an MFA or not? does anyone really care that much to use a masters as bragging rights? i am still in school for another extra year fools. it's called being a 5th year, a super senior, or the old enchilada. the last one being one that i made up for myself.
why have i slumped back into not capitalizing my entries? i thought i'd make an effort to start capitalizing starting with my previous entry, but i am just a lazy mofo. too lazy to even capitalize. if i were any animal, i'd be a sloth. when i wake up in the morning, the first thing i do is hit snooze about ten times on my alarm, then sit up and fall forward, flat on my face. that is so very sloth-like.
why am i already feeling stressed out and it's only the third week of school? does anyone have any suggestions for stress relief? the only ones that i can think off of the top of my head is meditation and/or tai chi. i'm considering meditation but i think even if i tried to sit still for a good ten minutes, i would probably fall asleep. tai chi could be another possibility because i'd be getting in touch with my chinese roots. i'd be rolling with the grandpas and grandmas at the park, and we all know that old people love me and think i can do no wrong. so clearly, tai chi is the answer.
