on cold days, i want something that will warm me up so i like to treat myself to a cup of hot chocolate from the cafes at school. unsurprisingly, everyone thinks this way too. they also want hot things to keep them warm. and so i wait and line up patiently behind the twenty, cold and grumpy college students before me. it is finally my turn, and i give my order politely, "hi, i'd like a single hot chocolate, please." half a second before i could even take another breath, the barrista interrupts me and says, "we're out of chocolate." oh, thanks for announcing that WAY in advance! i waited in line for no reason. and so, i mumbled an aggravated "forget it," and walked away sadly with my shoulders slumped back into the cold. if my life were a tv show, then this would be the moment when the sappy sad music would chime in to synchronize with my disappointment perfectly.

sometimes, all you really want is some hot chocolate to make things better, and sometimes that's all it really takes. but sometimes life is just cruel like that and i won't get my hot chocolate. this could turn out to be a metaphor for something more philosophical and thoughtful, but i'm not a deep enough person to come up with some elaborate explanation for that. but i just wanted my hot chocolate, dammit.

i spent last saturday pressing buttons and pulling slot machine levers in a casino filled with a sea of asian senior citizens. i came out as the same poor college student i was when i first came in and i smelled like an ashtray. the highlights of the night was screaming "BIG MONEY!" whenever i got a spin from the wheel of fortune slot machine and when i won 75 quarters. i'm slowly letting the money-hungry chinese side of me out. we chinese people love our money, and even more so gambling (see god of gamblers). it is simply in our blood.

i have been on hiatus because school chews me up and spits me out like a piece of tired gum. this is one result of my laborious labor of teaching myself CSS: my online portfolio which was our final project for one of my design classes. but alas, there are more projects still to come and to be completed. i have one more week to go, and then i will sink into lazy bum mode. i am so excited!